You say I’m feeble
I stay quiet
Here we go again,
The same routine.
You in hiding,
I, confused.
This vicious circle of you and I,
The words unsaid
With a fatal silence
too loud to be interrupting.
You say I’m liquid
I stay quiet
You pull me in; I push you away.
You call me near, I stay.
You reach out your hand; I smack it down.
My actions say leave, but I can’t breathe if you’re not around.
I scream inaudible sounds; you close your ears in silence.
Do you hear me calling for help? Do you even care?
You hold me in your arms, grasp so tight I can’t break free.
You win this time.
I break down…
…Finally.
You say I’m toxic
I stay quiet
The tears, oh how they flow, as if stream to an ocean.
Why am I crying?
For reasons undisclosed, for moments left unsaid.
I wipe, I wipe
They don’t stop! Just keep coming.
Eyes all dried out, head on my pillow,
another night I cry myself to sleep.
You say I’m always in a rush
I stay quiet
The rush was what I felt when your memory resounded in my head.
The flight of the butterflies within my bones.
The tingle that surged right down to my toes.
The chill that overtook me when someone mentioned your name.
The rush is the only thing that remains
You say my love is choking
I stay quiet
Mind.
Words swirling begging to be spoken.
Thoughts.
Jumbled on the paper asking to be taken notice of,
to be communicated, to be understood, to be felt.
To be taken seriously, but not personally.
Not to be taken to the extreme, now to become yours,
to be twisted, turned against, and then thrown in my face.
To be cradled, to be shown kindness, to be loved.
Heart.
Where that feeling is felt, where the thoughts begin.
Love.
The only thing anyone yearns for.
So,
when you say that
my silence overpowers our relation
that this is too violent for you
I stay quiet
Written by Ridhima Sharma for MTTN
Featured Artwork by Shivika Saraogi for MTTN
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